What is friend

This title always appear among all my friends..

they said friends is those who stay beside you even you are correct or wrong..

But what I've been through here is friends is those who will betray you anytime and yet just beware of it.
Just like the case that I break with my ex.
Yea..
Everyone hates me and said I'm the one who having affair with current bf before break with him.
The truth is we just to be together after break with him for few days.
What's wrong with that?
I'm just choosing the one that better than that for myself.
Maybe you are saying i'm talking the bullshit but somehow, when you met with someone richer than you which is same age with you, you will know you living in the small circle in a big big world.
you will change your needs when you steps in different stages of life.

My mother's friends always discuss with me that choosing boyfriend is like choosing your future.
Your love in secondary school and in college , will totally different from time to time. That doesn't mean that different person, but the vision and the target will be different.

So, just do not take it too serious as everyone will steps on the stages of life.
This is what the aunty's said to me.

Yes, I am totally wrong for posting those in a relationship with my current bf right after break with ex but, why I should sad for just a breaking with ex bf?
Which one you will choose if sad to pass a day and happy to pass day?
You guys keep on blaming me for having affairs and so on...
Please look at yourself before you scolding other people..

Can you tell me you do not do the wrong thing before?
Can you tell me that you never argue with people before?
No...

if you did it, please do not scold people with those words..
you ain't perfect just like me..
you do not have the right to judge people just like me..
just shut up your mouth and mind your own business..
this ain't your business and you do not earn anything from that..

I treat them as best friends in my life and end up they are the one hurts me so deep inside my heart. Friends is not scolding another friends in front of other people without understand the whole story..
Maybe you only know one side story but indeed, please consider that this is other people story.
You have the right to shut your mouth and listen or do not care it.

I am sad is not because I am breaking with him and he scold me.
I am sad because I am with a guy that I realized he is not suitable with me and have to be with him for 3 months.
So, No one have the right to scold me in the way I choosing my way.
Please....

That is the past..
I should thanks to those people who scolding me and I should say sorry, I cannot be your friends anymore..
I cannot be your friends because you never discuss with me when you listen to this news and you straight away scold me in facebook and msn.
Sorry guys..
My memory can be deleted like computers..
so, bye bye.

我哭了

今天一早起床后，就和家人在一起吃早餐。。
爸爸就说了一个他从新闻听回来的真实的故事。。

这个故事发生在外国。
这个故事说有个爸爸他拥有一个3岁的孩子。
当时，爸爸因为赚到钱，就买了一辆昂贵漂亮的车。。
爸爸把车放好后，孩子就带着好奇心与开心去看看那辆车。。
爸爸当时没有注意小孩的一举一动。。爸爸也很疼爱刚买的车。。
由于孩子的好奇心很强，他走到车头，看到反射的他，就在车头画画。。
当爸爸看到后，很生气三岁小孩的行动就打他，然后就用wires把他的双手绑紧起来并且把他捆在停车位里。

过后，两个小时后，爸爸的气消了。。才想到孩子的存在。。
爸爸才记得孩子在停车位里。
当爸爸看到小孩时，小孩双手发黑。。
（由于wires阻碍人类血液循环，小孩的手就救不了，必须切掉）
过了这件事后，爸爸就把车子拿去修理，当他驾回来的车子就像新的一样。。
小孩就问爸爸 ：
小孩：爸爸， 你把车子修理像新的一样。。那么，你几时要把我的手还给我？
爸爸听了之后，很后悔之前的错误，但是，后悔了也救不回他心爱孩子的手。。
爸爸过意不去就自杀了。。

听了爸爸说了这个故事，我就控制不了自己的情绪，流泪了。。
流泪也因为可怜那个小孩。。也可怜我的过去也有一点像那个小孩。。
以前，由于爸爸早出晚归，所以看到爸爸回来的时候是特别开心的。。
就会跑去迎接爸爸，也很想得到爸爸的抱抱。。
可是，到最后，我都得不到。。
虽然那时不会伤心和失望，但是那个已经变成一种预料到的成绩。。
小时候的我还是一样，爸爸放工就迎接他。。

最动人的是，爸爸告诉我，他听到那个故事也很后悔当初为什么没有抱抱我们。。
所以他现在很努力为我们着想。。

我也明白为什么我那么喜欢抱抱了。。
虽然一个抱抱对普通人来说不是很重要。。
但是，对我来说：抱抱是一种对我的关怀与疼爱。。

宝贝，上次你问我为什么我喜欢抱抱，我却不会回答你。。
现在我懂了。。
我希望你随时能抱抱我一下。。
get my meaning?

9 february 2010

今天宝贝告诉我他的婆婆去世了。。
我听了后，我一整天都很不开心。虽然和他的婆婆只是见过几次面，但是，我也对婆婆有深刻的印象。毕竟是我第一次见对方的婆婆们。。
看到婆婆的时候，她是坐着轮椅的。。听宝贝说婆婆很久前行动有点不方便了。。
婆婆的记忆不是很好但是，他还记得我是谁。。
今天忽然间收到这样的消息真的很意外。。

从我回来之后的这几天，我都比较忙。。
忙得却不是功课，而是帮妈妈办年货，整理东西等等。。
忙到我没有时间做功课。。虽然很担心，但是，我更加担心家人的健康。。
他们两的都那么老了，却还有他们忙一整天，心- 总是过意不去。。

宝贝，你一定要好好休息哦。。明天他们还很需要你的帮忙呢。。
我知道你很不开心，就算你告诉我你会照顾你自己我也是一样会担心你。。
但是，生，老，病，死 是无法避免的。。
你的爸爸一定会好好照顾婆婆的哦。。
他们在上也会保佑你们。。
所以，你就不别那么不开心了。。
别忘记~
我， 你的女朋友。。。
会在你旁边爱护你，照顾你，疼爱和自持你。。。
我爱你。。

今年的新年和情人节都不能和你一起过。。
但是，我觉得，和你在一起的日子就是我的情人节。。
那么，我就会有很多天的情人节咯。。我很贪心对吗 ？ 哈哈~
我相信你也不会忘记情人节当天是我们在一起的第八个月哦。。
礼物就迟点补回给你吧~

宝贝，早点睡吧~
想念你~~